why am i always like this

mi in grey wif pink in both pic{ frenz in are clarice,kelly,shu yun, xia yun}
{took this a day b4 tat sad day[oral] }

am sick of sch sick of mi ..... why am i like this all the time ,, so sadistic huh negative towards life towards everything.

Did real bad during my oral presentation [ thurs ] in overrall am in totally nervous,,,, everything tat i prepare turn bad , could not say wat i want to , hearing the others speech so gd , much better then mine ,, all did resaerch on their topics am am sucks .......
felt like leaving the class after saying seeing Ms Chan's shocked expression when i quickly say a thank you . ah ,, had a bad day , went to the toliet cried there , tears juz can't stop .. feeling so.............. although she passed mi , mi in C grade area ..... wonder why she pass mi , maybe coz my attire ..
leg hurts too ,,,,,,
pain , am in pain ,,,, cried and cried without anyone knowing [am i foolish crying over such a small matter]
and there she goes ,,,'cry for wat ,, it's over le' something like tat .....
thinking negatively again , though my 3rd sis tried consoling mi ate some chocolate but i juz can't help it kept remembering wat happen ,, eyes damm red , could not control .... hai~

got no mood to study c-prog common test .. leading tat i did not really write much in the common test yesterday gonna fail i suppose . hearing them /her keep saying tat she finish her paper did correctly bah bah ....... feeling so bad , real bad , seeing ppl happily talking not mi ,,, same feeling again , left out again , nth to talk abt when am wif them ,, even saying a joke to them becomes like a serious matter. cannot relax ,, so vexed now .

why am i writing all this ......

one thing gd ,though now got 2 new anime showing on arts centre , humm peace maker seems nice but scrapped princess humm drawing not gd ,, story line so-so , well got to see further .

oh yes finally read / went to download a PDF version of Howl's Moving Castle storybook by Diana Wynne Jones totally luv her book. read over 10plus of her books already since my Sec sch time. regret tat time did not borrow all her books in sch library ,, tat time i recall seeing howl's moving castle there , ahh ,,oh well.

went to download the movie too using LimeWire [my sis dl one] got to thanx her man!
b4 tat went to dl Yami No Matsuei . haha a few episodes i like ..[ muraki .... luv it ,, so cool]
gonna countinue dling inuyasha movies too . did manage to dl 1st mov ,but got no subtitle .. got to re-download .

well tat makes me feel gd for now ...... sain nx week got darn proj presentation
[c-pro & sem-proj] sian sian ... also haven start revising supp-math common test nx week.

nx uP: supp-math EG1046[ coming fri]
EPC EG1074[14 sep]
Analog EG 1215[15 sep]
Math EG1008[21 sep]

GOD BLESS ME.

oh great feeling moody again ,, help mi ..... like real .
bye now
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